I think I’ve used this as a journal entry title several times. I really am feeling pretty blah today, though.

I’m not really getting anywhere on my social media detox. I really want to quit some of this stuff and use it a bit less, but then I feel isolated and blah.

I don’t really know what to do. I guess noting that I have a problem is an important step, isn’t it?

One good thing, though. I haven’t had a drink in 43 days. My little “quit that” tracker tells me that I’ve saved approximately $172. That’s awesome!


I’ve been stressing out about food and exercise and everything. I have terrible allergies. It’s tree sex season and I just don’t feel great. Apparently, when you give up an alcohol habit that you were using for anxiety, all of your body neurotransmitters ramp back up, including one that releases histamine. So my allergies are like 20 times worse than normal and it is AWFUL.

But here I am.

I’ve been tracking my phone use with an app called Mirror. So far so good. It’s easy to get around it and shut it down, even though I’m not trying to. It kind of shocking, but not super shocking, how much time I spend on my phone. Right now I’m in the “track” stage before it starts getting all draconian and shit on me. LOL

My latest exercise goal is to go to the gym twice a week to work out, doing strength training. I picked up a program from Steph Gadreau (Harder to Kill), and I’m hopeful to build some serious strength, particularly core strength. Today is going to be day one!

Gotta write something

Okay, so I have to write something today. I don’t know what to say other than I worked yesterday and didn’t really check my social media most of the day. Last night, I spent a lot of time on the phone checking stuff, but at least when I work and am socially engaged, using my brain, etc., I don’t feel like I need to do that stuff. Maybe that is really the ticket for me.

I do remember reading some years ago that some researchers could easily get mice/rats addicted to some hard drug by keeping them in normal cages without their friends. The moment they gave most of those guys access to others like them, in a bigger cage, with more things to do, they mostly rejected the addictive stuff. People are the same, mostly. It makes sense that being with others and doing fun stuff would make you uninterested in the bad stuff.


I said I was back but I forgot to hit “publish” until this morning. Major fail.


So here I am. It’s January 30. I think I kept 7 pounds off this month, which is pretty good. I heard back from the 23andme people on my diet plan (over two weeks later after the start of the “diet”) and they said the diet intervention was just “guidelines”. So I’m just going to eat paleo. I’ll still try to keep the carbs down, but not going to eat grains unless I have a headache or feel like I need some brown rice or beans. I can lose weight that way. It’s been hard since I’ve been wanting to eat snack chips and cheese puffs that my kid has laying around everywhere.

Other than feeling like I’m not quite feeling 100% (I have aches and pains and anxiety since quitting my wine), I think I’m doing okay. Some days are better than others.

I have one more day in January, then it’s off to February, where my focus is cutting back on electronics and trying to just be more like I was before the iPhone and Facebook. You know, where I read books, or watched TV, or exercised regularly because I had “free time”? Yeah…


Today’s my birthday, and it was a good one! I had fun, was surrounded by friends and went to dinner with my family. Very good day.

But now I’m back and realize that I have 2-ish days left on a dietbet that I haven’t lost enough weight on and it’s pissing me off. This is the second one I’ve done and haven’t lost quite enough. About a week ago, I was one pound short of my goal. Since then, I’ve been eating too many carbs (and totally not sticking to my 23andme study, either). Hopefully, my updating of that study will reflect that. Dang!

SOOOO…tomorrow it’s all salad and protein and same for Monday. Man, what a bummer. Hope I can get my weight to just below the cut off so I can get some momentum to keep going. I know this wasn’t my goal for January, but it feels like it was. Blah!

Oh well, at least I’m journaling!

New things

Just got a robot vacuum for my birthday. It’s AMAZING. I love it! Still not really sure why it makes zero sense, but I suspect after learning our house, it won’t be as nuts. It still doesn’t eliminate the need for a regular vacuum (hello stairs), but it will force me to keep the floor free of clutter so that it can do its thing, which will keep the floors clean.

In other news, I’m still totally distracted and anxious about the distractibility.

In other other news, my birthday is this weekend! Yay to being old! Hahaha.


I got an Apple Watch and I’m totally excited! My birthday is in a couple of weeks and I had a Fitbit Charge HR that broke before the year mark. I got a replacement which then broke before the year mark. Fitbit build quality must be really terrible lately because my first one, a Fitbit Zip, lasted for quite a long time (at least two years) before biting the dust, and they replaced it. And the Zip was cheap (like, 40 bucks at the time?). But the watch was close to $150 (give or take, after tax) and it broke after only about 8-9 months? Totally unacceptable!

The Apple Watch is not cheap. The model I got was the $350-ish 42mm model. I could have picked a series 1 version for around $200, but I wanted to be able to track swims. I wanted the bigger model for my gigantic man hands. In any event, it was an expensive purchase. I decided if it lasts at least 4 years, which is about how long my iPhones watch before starting to get glitchy, then it’s a better use of my money than the damn Fitbit.


I’m doing this 23andme thing and so far, it’s pretty straightforward and not terribly difficult. This is the first day that I’ve really stuck to it. And I just realized that it’s late afternoon and I’m craving salty crunchy things. I just had a handful of chocolate covered almonds (I’m allowed to have almonds, and I’m allowed to have dark chocolate). It hit the spot. But I still want cheese or something (which is allowed, hallelujah!).

That’s my journal entry for today. LOL

Update on 23andme

Oooh, so I finally got the email. Here are the details (my comments in different color):

On this diet, try to aim for…

  • 3-4 servings per day of lean protein: mostly fish, seafood, chicken, turkey, duck, eggs, or tofu easy
  • Lots of non-starchy vegetables, especially green leafy salad greens mostly easy
  • Water, coffee, and/or tea (caffeinated or decaf) way easy
  • For cooking, choose olive or canola oil I only use olive anyway

On this diet, try to limit…

  • Grains to 1 serving per day of whole grains this is how I eat when I want to lose a ton of weight fast
  • Fruit to 1 serving per day I don’t really eat a lot of fruit
  • Red and processed meats I do eat red meat, not much processed; I know my body well enough to know eating red meat will not make a difference in my weight loss
  • Alcohol to 1 drink per day (or less) currently teetotaling

On this diet, try to avoid…

  • Added sugars: cakes, candies, cookies WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
  • Sweetened beverages: Fruit juice, sodas, sweetened teas, sports drinks easy

Enjoy 1-2 snacks per day…

  • A small handful (1 oz) of nuts easy
  • Half of an avocado I like guacamole!
  • A couple squares (1 oz) of dark chocolate, at least 70% cocoa solids YAY!!!
  • 3-4 dice-sized cubes of cheese (1 oz) DOUBLE YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

If you have a sudden craving, try

  • Drinking a large glass of water and waiting a few minutes. Thirst is often confused with food cravings. Research shows that drinking water before meals can reduce appetite and help with weight loss. Iced or hot tea or coffee (particularly herbal or decaffeinated) are also good options. very good advice!
  • Chewing sugar-free gum -this also can help ward off cravings. no thank you…I hate gum and sugar-free anything gives me a migraine unless it’s stevia only

My thoughts:

This is so totally doable. This is how I eat when I need to lose TONS of weight. But because they’re allowing me a serving of grains every day, I can still ward off the migraines (I love me some brown rice) if and when I want them. I think this will work out really well. This will also work for my weekly Chipotle craving. A girl needs her burrito bowl.

Funny enough, because this is for science, I’m way more serious about it than I probably would be. So, I’m honestly expecting to lose 30+ pounds. I sincerely hope that this works the way I expect it to. FINGERS CROSSED!!!